My Dearest Cory:
Today I looked in your baby book. I turned to the page with your birth announcement. It read , Phyllis and Rob have added a miracle to their lives. For nineteen and one half years we have loved and nurtured you unconditionally. We truly worshiped the ground you walked on and the air you breathed. One day you decided that your life with us was finished and you would go to the lifetime you felt you belonged. For the first time you did not ask our permission, and you left.
When you were born our plan was to live happily ever after. I have just lived my first year without you. I now know happily ever after was only in the fairy tales I read to you as you grew up. We know nobody can live forever. I knew this but in my plan it was I that would leave you. I would be old and my years would have been filled with your many years of growth. I would have left this world fulfilled.
I have cried everyday since you left me. I have a pain inside of me that seems to worsen each day. I feel part of my heart and soul missing. It was the part of me that belonged to you, so I am glad you took it with you. You hold onto me, for one day I will meet you to take it back and put it where it belongs. You will surely have to wait. For as much as I miss you I know you are safe, I know you have found the lifetime you knew you belonged in and therefore I know you are living in peace. I still have a plan. Lucas and Dad have some growing up to do and my plan is to grow with them.
I still see myself as that old lady who lives a full life and watches her son, Lucas grow. I will find happiness, and I will learn to love again and I promise that when I am ready you will be the first one I search for. So look for me, and until then continue watching over us, you promised, remember.
I will love you forever my Cory-bory-allis
Hugs and Kisses